Fresh Start

I decided it was time to restart a brand new blog. I used to love it before I started ACTUALLY living my awesome life. In a lifetime that seems like it was not even mine. A time that I honestly work at every day to block the pain out of my mind. You could say Joshua Radin has inspired me. He has kept me company at work while I type and listen to reports from my doctors. MUSIC makes such a big difference. I have realized my time spent listening to music disappeared for a while. I realize how much of a softy I am for the emo beats and piano emotional rock lullaby songs and how it just makes me think and reflect. Seriously Joshua Radin will put you in a mood whether its happy, lovey, sad, and especially GRATEFUL for the love in your life.

I have had such a hard time figuring out how I even feel about anything these days. I have felt just numb. I blame it on PMS but it feels like I am using that excuse for the past few hundred days straight. Pretty sure it is just full-time work and the stresses of it and waking up at 6:30AM every morning. Listening to doctors and residents dictate all day in a crammed up office I am sure helps too!

Jared and I have been married for 7 months now! It is very safe to say that he is definitely the best thing that has ever happened to me. He was the last thing that I saw coming into my life at such a hard and painful time. He seriously saved my life in ways that I could never put in words. I really do not want to brag (and I do not even appreciate it as much as I should) but, he is the most patient, kind, loving, hard-working man I have ever met. I can be a brat sometimes and he is just so good to me. He brings out the best in me. When I am a spaz and get irritated easily he just laughs at me and then I am quick to realize that I am a spaz and we just burst out laughing together. This sums up a lot of how our relationship is and how it goes most days. Jared is very easy going and always happy. Seriously, he is like a little kid and always singing, moving, dancing or bursting out with random noises. He loves to play. Most importantly he knows when to be serious. He is very smart and has such a good memory. I just have to shake my head at him because he is so full of knowledge. Okay I will leave more of the bragging for later...

We have been living in Saskatoon since September and we love it here! Jared is going to school at the University of Saskatchewan taking pre-dental courses and is applying for Dental school this year. It is very competative so we are hoping he gets in!

We have loved it out here! It is like a home away from home. We love the ward that we are in and we teach Primary ages 4 and 5. We love it. I love being able to teach together and it is a lot funner than relief society! haha  The kids are so fun. I am working full time at the Royal University Hospital as an administrative assistant/medical transcriptionist and work for 4 different pediatricians. Three of them are pediatric neurologists and one of them is a pediatric hematologist/oncologist. It definitely keeps me busy and I feel like I have accomplished a lot at the end of the day. It is great because I work one-on-one with the doctors and get to talk to them every day about reports and their patients and prepare them for clinics.

We definitely miss our family back home! Going to Sunday dinner at the Anderson's to just the two of us is quite an adjustment. We cannot wait to go back home for Christmas! It has been good out here for me and Jared to be on our own though. We have grown so much and it is a great learning experience. We have had a lot of time to spend together and getting to know each other even better. Even though sometimes all I do is work, come home, we make dinner together, watch some t.v. and go to bed early.  I must say I love getting to sleep in the same bed as someone every night. Having Jared there is such a comfort...even though I snore loudly apparently and he is usually trying to plug my nose and roll me over so I stop. I think I don't sleep very well so this is a comfort to me knowing that I don't even wake up or remember waking up! Jared and I have so much fun together! I know I can be grumpy sometimes so he really is a gem! I am trying more to be positive and just to be happy and not let my tiredness get to me.

I was really sad/PMS-ing last week and broke down into tears to Jared a few times because we did not have a Christmas tree or lights or anything Christmassy in our house. It was the coming in to the second week of December and I thought we were the worst and saddest people because we did not even have a tree and it was our first year as a married couple! I am sure I overreacted a few times - well I know I did - haha. But I just wanted to get into the Christmas spirit and I was being selfish. Jared has been crazy busy studying for his final exams and all I could think about was that we didn't have a tree. Well on Monday after all of my whining...When I came home from work Jared had surprised me with a TREE! Along with some twinkle lights around our cute little fireplace and a poinsettia and a stuffed baby penguin. I WAS THE HAPPIEST! This was a BIG deal because if you know Jared, he is not very cheesy/flowering me with gifts every second, which I am totally okay with since when you get them you just LOVE IT and appreciate it so much! And he does way cuter things like clean the house, laundry, and cook! ha I was so happy when I saw te tree I cried! He seriously is the cutest and I was a brat haha. Now we are set all thanks to Jared. Our first Christmas together is looking pretty great! I am so happy I get to spend it with him in my arms this year.  CHEESY but true. I am so happy we have each other. I could not have asked for greater in-laws. I feel so lucky to be part of such a loving family. Can't wait to see them! Alright I feel better now that I wrote some feelings down - ha ha.